Numb

The boy left the home this morning and is back with his mom. Devastated.

I wish

There are a lot of things in this world I wish. One of which is pretty harsh. I wish, if you don't make enough money to support your family/children please don't bring a pet into the situation. It isn't fair for anyone involved. I understand this makes me sound very snobby and rude. I just don't see the point of letting an animal suffer because the owner can't afford medicines, food, health care etc.

Last night, Tigger spent his night puking and doing other disgusting things all over the house. Poor thing. He was so pitiful. You could tell he didn't feel well. All he wanted to do was cuddle in my lap but each time he would, he would get comfortable and then get down because he needed to get sick. We ended up taking him to the doggy hospital this morning and they tested him for all sorts of things. Tests show he has a parasite. Which thankfully can be treated fairly easily with antibiotics and a few shots AND hasn't caused any damage to his heart or other organs. The parasite came from 2 places. Either our neighbors who don't take care of their animals or me.

I have a student who just got a new puppy. The mom has brought the puppy up to school 3 or 4 times. Another story for another time. She brought the dog up during our Valentine's Day party on Friday and the dog was sick. So I most likely took the sickness home to Tigger. If I did bring home the sickness from the puppy, I know the poor little puppy won't get the proper treatment. This particular students' family just got evicted from their apartment and it's just not a good situation. This mom can't afford to pay rent or put food on the table so you know the puppy is the low man on the totum poll. So sad, it hurts my heart.

Bah humbug

The cysts are back. Yuck. This might be the proof I need to stay on a healthy eating program. I don't know any other reason that they would come back so quickly? But, I'm not a doctor so I'll see what she has to say about it. I was hoping that they were a thing of the past but no such luck.

Time flew by!

Holy cow it's already 2011. The hubs and I have made a few changes at the household. We have a part-time kidlet. Sounds more interesting than it is, I promise! He is a former student of mine and things happened very quickly. His case worker sent an email to school and 3 weeks later we were approved. His first visit was Thanksgiving and he just left from his second visit. Everyone has embraced him as "ours" so the transition was simple. He definitely had a different Christmas than he is used to. Which was good for him and bad for him. I'm so mean...I made him write Thank You cards for the gifts he received. You would have thought I took his XBox and threw it out the window and then stomped on a kitten. Jeez. I won, but not without a lot of frustration and pouting on his part. He's so big that sometimes I treat him like an adult and get frustrated when he doesn't respond like an adult should, so I have to stop and realize that he's only 12. So that's what is going on in the household and I'll try to do better about blogging. Have a great new year!!

Gone but not forgotten

The world lost a great person today. If I've learned anything from friends' passing, it's to not take things for granted. Lately, I've just wanted to kick myself because I take things for granted. I take for granted that I'll be able to talk to you tomorrow, so I don't call. I take for granted that I'll be able to come visit you , so I don't stop by. I take for granted that I'll be able to email you later so I put off the just saying hello thinking of you email, because I can do it tomorrow. It's sad that death has to remind me that I'm not guaranteed tomorrow SO if you are in my life, I truly hope you know how special you are to me. I love each and every one of you! Thank you for being such great friends and standing by my side when I needed things. Thanks for supporting me even if you don't always agree with my choices. Thanks for sometimes telling me what I need to hear, gently, and for slapping me back to reality when I needed it too. Most of all, thanks. It was time for me to stop taking all of your wonderful friendships for granted and say thank you. THANK YOU!

Prayers please

Please pray for my friend Leslie. She went into premature labor late last night and lost her twins at 21 weeks. She suffered a heart attack and had to be revived. She is currently on a ventilator and not breathing on her own. The doctors aren't sure if she suffered brain damage. She is only 28 years old. She is married to a wonderful man who brought 3 young children to the marriage. He lost his first wife, their mother, to Cancer a couple years ago.

I suck!

My last blog post was July 1st. Yes JULY! It's September, jeez where does the time go?

I've been swamped with school stuff. My pet peeve is people who constantly talk about their job or people who can't separate themselves from it. I've become my pet peeve. I am under an enormous amount of pressure because we are, for the 2nd year in a row, on the needs improvement list. We have all of these people coming in and out of the classroom which is fine because I know I'm a good teacher and have nothing to hide. However, we have so many added things that I feel like a first year teacher in survival mode. I feel like I can't catch up. I'm an organized person and I feel out of sorts.

I also feel like I'm trapped in middle school mean girls club. From grown arce adults no less. I hate it BUT I was talking to a friend who gave me some words of wisdom that I need to live by for the next 165 school days. It was/is, "take time to see the beauty in things and say thank you for them. Thank you for the beautiful weather, thank you for my precious students, thank you for my wonderful husband, family, and friends. When an angry thought pops into your head , think of a thank you thought. It really changes your attitude and perspective." So, for the next 165 school days, I am going to think happy thank you thoughts. Don't take bets on how long you think I'll make it. Just save up bail money!