It's Thanksgiving time!

The holiday seasons are upon us! I am thankful for the time off that provides me an opportunity to spend time with friends and family. However, the time off also makes me think. Why do you think it takes a holiday to make us realize what we should be grateful for everyday? Why does it take Thanksgiving for us to thank and spend quality time with our families, friends, spouses, significant others etc? Why can't we slow down and smell the roses everyday? Why does it take Christmas to bring everyone together to realize the love that Jesus had for us when he died on the cross? Why does it take New Years to make resolutions, become healthy, or make a change that would be beneficial for you or those in your life? I am guilty of not devoting all of myself to the people I should on a daily basis. I just wish it didn't take holidays to make me realize it!

Relay for Life Fundraiser!

Come support Team Fight Club's fundraiser, a come and go event, THIS Saturday from 10a.m-2p.m.
Where: Kelham Baptist Church
3400 N Meridian
When: Saturday, November 7th 10a.m-2p.m.
Get your Holiday Shopping done in ONE stop! An array of home based businesses are working together to offer you a wide selection of products to purchase in support of Team Fight Club's Relay For Life of OKC 2010 fundraising goal!
Come and enjoy:
Mary Kay Cosmetics
Bees Knees (children's clothing)
Jewelry
Scentsy
Creative Memories
Homemade Gourmet
Kaleigh's Creations (unique baby gifts for your new arrival and mom to be!)

Walking in memory of my best friend Lindsey, who lost her battle with cancer last summer.

Relay for Life

I joined my best friends Relay for Life team today! I have mixed feelings about it. Not about joining the team, just about the circumstances on why I am involved. I have been involved with Relay for Life since 99 ish. Every year I was always walking for the survivor not walking for the in memory of. Now that, that has changed and I am walking for in memory of I don;t know how I am going to handle it. Some of you know that Lindsey, another one of my best friends, passed away from cancer last summer and I still have my ups and downs with her passing. This year I wasn't at the point where I could participate. It was all I could do to hold it together for the 10 minutes I was there dropping off a birthday cake we got for Linda, so I am sure I would have been a site to see if I had stayed. I know its for a good cause and most of our friend group will be involved so it should be a great time! Wish me luck.

I don't get it

I don't get it. I don't understand how some people always make a mountain out of a mole hill. What kind of life is that? Why always play the what if game in life? Why not just let things happen and worry about things when they become an issue? This is more of a passive aggressive rant than anything. I read a blog that kind of set me off and I don't know why it gets to me. Well, I take that back I do know why it gets to me. I'm not the type of person who stretches the truth or makes something out of nothing so it's really hard for me to understand when people do that. That has to be a miserable life. I feel sorry for people like that. I think they will always be unhappy and probably make the people around them miserable but that's their choice. I just wish they would stop dragging us through the mud to make their unhappiness and untruths easier for them to swallow.

New school year equals fun new students

I started school this week and even though it was only Thursday and Friday (a very short week) I think it's going to be a good year. Of course they are chatty! I have yet to have a group that didn't want to chit chat instead of learn. I can't believe September is almost here. I will have a busy 6 months until March but I'm ready to dive into everything that encompasses the National Board process and I think the kiddos wont know what hit them!

Grandparents

I can't sleep. I think it's because I finally realized that my grandma is mentally gone. She doesn't know who I anymore. I have been putting off going to see her since May because of it and I feel really guilty about it. May was her 86th birthday and we had a family dinner for her. We were sitting around talking and she was looking at one of the picture albums from the wedding and she turned to me and said, "how come I wasn't invited?" I was speechless. "What? Grandma that's you in that picture and that's you being walked down the aisle by Jeremy." She shook her head and said, "nope that's not me. That's someone that looks like me." She didn't remember any of it. I had to excuse myself to the bathroom to go cry. Honestly not because I was sad she didn't remember the wedding but because she had no clue that I was her granddaughter. Like I would really leave my own grandmother out of one of the most important days of my life! My grandparents were always a big part of my life. When I was in kindergarten I lost my maternal grandfather to a heart attack. My paternal grandparents lived in Bethany all my life and my maternal grandma lived in Oklahoma City so they were always around. I saw my maternal grandma every weekend. After my other grandpa passed away I always thought my grandmas should move in together so they could be like the Golden Girls! When I lost my paternal grandma I knew I needed to spend more time with my last grandparent. I would go over and we would talk about school. Occasionally, she would ask me the same questions she had previously asked in another conversation but I gave her the benefit of the doubt because the woman was in her 80's! She would accidentally call me by my mothers name, again fine because we do look alike but she would always correct herself. Then I started noticing some other Dementia related signs and it got to be too hard for me to go see her. It's a no win situation. I want to go and spend time with her. But the her I want to spend time with wont be there. It will be someone who doesn't know me. I will choke back tears the whole time and stay for a measly 15 minutes and then sit and cry in the car for 30 minutes. 5 minutes after I leave she won't remember that she even had a visitor. If you can't tell I'm having a pity party for myself! I'm going to need to get over it because I'm being selfish. So...I'm putting on the big girl panties but stuffing them full of tissues and going to make myself stay for longer than 15 minutes and have a nice conversation with my grandma. Whether or not she knows who I am is beside the point. She deserves this because she's always been there for me no matter my condition so I'm going to return the favor! Eeek...pray for me.

I think I missed my calling

I finally finished organizing my closet. I'm down to 50+ pairs of shoes and the clothing I am getting rid of is being donated to my old team teachers' friend who lost everything in a fire. Ever since I was little I always organized my friends stuff/rooms. I would organize our freezer, refrigerator, drawers etc at home and did the same thing for other people when they asked. And sometimes when they didn't lol! I also love love love to bake and cook. I like to experiment, which I blame on my dad, with food and cooking without recipes. When DH and I were registering for our showers I registered for a Stainless Steel KitchenAid Commercial Stand Mixer. He about had a heart attack when he saw the $550 price tag and swore up and down I would never use it. Thankfully one of my besties, Linda convinced him and others that I needed it and got a bunch of people to go in together and "we" got it at one of our showers! I proved him wrong because I use it all the time! I should be on the T.V. show Ace of Cakes because I have so much fun and am pretty good at it, not to toot my own horn. So why am I talking about organizing and cooking you wonder? Because I think I missed my calling! I think if education gets to be too much I will have 3 new titles. I am going to be party planner extraordinaire/pastry chef/professional organizer. I see a new business adventure lol!